Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Random Open house

I reached home from kg at 6am on Saturday morning. since i was away from cyber world for a week so i didn't sleep right away but i chose to torture my eyes and my body by online. hehehe. Suddenly at 11.30am Naem msg me (ym) and invited me to go to Maikel's open house. And I don't know why, i accepted it (gile concept spontaneous berani mati punyer!). I warned Naem to never leave me alone so many times since I was shy (terkejut tak!?), and coz i don't know anyone there accept for him and Maikel. (in fact aku baru je plak tu kenal derang berdua ni. Pernah jumpe sekali je, and masa tu takde borak sgt pon sbb tgh discuss keje ngan aziz)

And after berkelam-kelibut unpack all my things from the car (which super duper banyak coz mama bagi kat kami barang-barang dia sekali T_T), I immediately went to PJ to pick up Naem. Dugaan agak besar utk tiba ke rumah terbuka itu. Some of the friends came late, some got lost on the way, some have to find toilet.. (-_-")
but it was fun! I really enjoy the moment looking at Naem's hungry face. hahaha!

When we were there, suddenly I became the rare me!
I didn't speak!!! can u believe that?! huhuhuhu. seriously people, i talk a lot but only with friends, not with people that I don't know yet. So some people may think that I am a quiet person. Tapi pabila mereka menjadi kawanku mereka akan menyesal berfikir begitu T_T


inilah hasilnya! kelakuan bersopan santun. (-_-")


salam perkenalan semuanya! :)

And after that I was supposed to go home already when suddenly Maikel ran away from his house to follow Naem to other friend's open house (perangai siyot) and invited me to go along. I was already a little bit blurry as the result of staying up after driving from Penang, so I can't think straight and honestly I think they were fun to hang out with, so I said yes! :D

So this is the second house we went:


saye follow mereka inilah! eh, mana my hubby?


with tuan rumah (Nana)

The food was awesome in both houses, and they were also very friendly. So as much as I felt shy, i still have fun and enjoy the day so much!
erk, mcm dah nak penutup story plak..

Actually, after Nana's house, we went to another house (which i also don't know the owner :P). So concept hari itu ialah spontaneous dan follow sajelah! hehehe.
It was already at night and seriously despite my all-the-time-smiling face that i potrait, my body has already shaking and my head was spinning sometimes.
I was covering it from them but I think Maikel noticed it, so he asked me to go home to get some sleep. (ke sebenarnye dia halau aku weh? huhu)

Hurm... papahal that day was awesome! Random and spontaneous (dah 3 kali kuar perkataan ni). Really hope that we can hang out again sometimes. Thanks to them all especially to Maikel and Naem for not leaving me alone and entertained me all the way. Thank you so much! I had fun!

p/s: ni crita hari sabtu, hari ahad aku kasi sambung later. ngantuk dah. babai


Sunday


I woke up early to go to my uncle's open house at Sepang. They just got back from Japan. (celebrate raya kat jepun. jeles.)
As expected, it was fun! I love them all. Okay, nothing more to say.

nanti dah dpt gambar aku letak*

After that we went to my friend's house. He was my classmate back in 1995 (sekolah rendah tu). He was also my neighbor. So his parents is my parents' friend. Basically they work together at Langkawi's airport. I haven't seen him for about a year, and he's already married (yg bestnye, dia kawen ngan adik ex aku. waaah kecilnya dunia! T_T) His mom is sick. It's sad to see the person i knew in that condition. I'll pray for her to get better. Amiiin.

At night we went to my other friend's house pulak. perhubungan kami sama la lebey kurang mcm ngan kawan aku yg tadi tu. We were all staying at airport quarters Langkawi last time. So, quarters confirm ar parents kawan-kawan dan anak-anak pon berkawan juga kan. hehe.

this is the best thing about raya. kite dapat berjumpa kembali rakan-rakan lama.
i know that we can meet each other even bukan time raya pon kan. but then, thats our culture. raya je gi jalan umah org! ok ape kan. drp tak jumpe langsung. hehe

p/s: hari raya hari yang mulia~

Saturday, September 26, 2009

4 tahun sekali


depa kata tema baju raya aku thn ni ikut color sawah padi
(-_-")



yerps, only once in 4 years my parents dapat cuti raya. so this year memang beraya sakan tak ingat dunia punya! cuti sampai seminggu. er, more actually. kami balik kg last friday and just reached home this morning.

owh, let me tell you bout that friday. (friday yg lagi 2 hari nak raya tu la)
kampung kami kat sungai bakau, nibong tebal. sempadan penang dan perak.
(utk pengetahun rakan-rakan yg mengenali diri ini, itu sajalah kg yg aku ada skang. so kalau aku cakap aku nak balik kg, maknanya kat situ lah! bukan kedah dan mmg definitely bukan langkawi okay. owh one more thing, kg aku kat seberang perai selatan, bukan dalam island. mengambil masa hampir sejam nak masuk island. so tak payahla pesan dvd mahupon buah pala, sbb seingat aku, mmg rare sungguh nak sampai ke dalam pulau tu kalau aku blk kg. (-_-)

okay berbalik pada friday. this year kami balik kg 2 kereta. dah takleh buat perangai naik waja 7 org. tak muat dah. so aku ngan zira balik sendiri naik kereta comel yg kami duk berebut tu. dan lan tumpang kami sbb dia lupa nak beli tiket bas. T_T
so, normally it took us around 4 hours utk sampai ke kg. tapi pada hari jumaat yg bahagia itu, kami mengambil masa almost 12 hours utk tiba di umah tokwan. (tapi itu termasuk shopping barang persiapan raya kat bandar baru parit buntar selama lebih kurang 2 jam. hehe) jalan jam giler, ala-ala macam new year kat area klcc. bila aku pikir-pikir rasa hairan macam mana manusia yg ramai-ramai balik kg ni bole muat duduk kat KL yg hanya satu dot dalam map malaysia tu. amazing kan!?

so raya tahun ni memang meriah. coz it's been too long since i saw my cousins. semuanya dah besar panjang. kalau jumpa kat tepi jalan mmg aku tak tegur sbb tak kenal langsung muka sorang-sorang. ada yg dah kahwin, in fact ada yg anak dah besar pon. (aduh, aku jugak yg menyingle) T_T

and too bad my camera still kat kedai. aku nak gi mengamuk kat kedai ni, dah 'setahun' (literally okay, bukan exaggerate) service camera tu tak siap-siap lagi. gila ke!?
so here are few chosen pictures taken using my sister's phone. :D


overtime di malam raya


tokwan & tok di pagi syawal


rumah dikelilingi pokok beras

p/s: sampai je umah pagi ni ada hadiah istimewa di depan umah. pokok pelam mama tumbang kat porch (-_-")

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Salam Lebaran



Of all my sins, hearts I hurt, or things I said.
Your forgiveness I ask on this day.
And humbly Yours forever I stay.
Selamat Hari Raya to all.
Maaf Zahir dan Batin.



p/s: esok dah nak balik kg. takut tak sempat nak wish, so i post this today. :)

Monday, September 14, 2009

cybertrons

September 11th 2009

after a very very looooong discussion and argumentation, at last we ended up breaking fast at Itallianies Sunway, which was actually the first idea. The thread was such a drama. There were so many suggestions and objections. But that was fun though.

11 of us finally made it. The food was okay but the night was really awesome.


so excited when i saw this! called diyana right away!


we were the first to arrived so we placed the order


while waiting for the 'azan' and also the others


11 of us!


bila dah kenyang...


a r o u n d t h e w o r l d ! we got it!


the bill and the treasurers


arm, gump, feeda, elin, anan, aswaq, qaha, kecik
dause, diyana, jaq

if you think the night has ended here, u are wrong!
although it's quite hard for us to make the decision (we love to argue!), but we will never end it just like that. so what's next?


B o w l i n g !
i will not upload other pics coz it was so embarrassing. :P


Another argument came afterward...


but i had fun with diyana. hehe

finally we decided. so here is the final destination


darussalam ss15


ops! wrong again. that was not the last place. but there were no pic of the last place we went.
this is the last pic of that night...


have u seen this? designed by diyana & diana.
hahaha! (poyo giler)


p/s: see you guys after raya! xoxo

Sunday, September 13, 2009

My Perfect Shoe

Few years back, when I was wandering alone at a shopping mall, I’ve found this shoe that was so gorgeous yet simple. It was a bit pricey so it took me sometimes to actually buy it. I wanted to make sure that my money won’t go to waste so I tried the shoe few times and each time I felt the same thing. It was very comfortable! So not long after that I bought that shoe!

Few months later I started to realize that this shoe can be worn with any kind of outfit. So I wear it for casual outing, formal meeting, fancy dinner and even for sports sometimes; and to my surprised, it never betray me. It looked perfect every time. My friends admire and love the shoe. They thought I was so lucky to actually owned that ideal shoe.

But then, after a few years of faithfully wearing it, I started to questioned, why this is so easy for me. Why is it so hard for others to find the perfect shoe? I saw them trying so many different shoes and some of them still can’t find their perfect shoe until now. Some of them found one and then it’s broken or missing. Why is this shoe still in a good condition even though I’ve worn it all the time, anywhere, everywhere? Is this for real? I always believed that this shoe was made and designed especially for me, but what if it’s not? Then I started to questioned it’s invisible flaws.

While I was wondering and questioning, unexpectedly I found another shoe that look so smart. At first I just look at it and admiring it. I don’t have any intention to buy it because I was already comfortable wearing my perfect shoe. Then all of a sudden, I fall and my feet got hurt. I was so shocked and mad at my perfect shoe, I threw it at one corner, and I rushed to the shop to buy that smart shoe.

I was so happy with my new smart shoe because it’s different and it gave me thrilling experience. But after just few weeks I started to realize that this shoe doesn’t suit my old outfits. So I bought some new outfits to match it. It’s quite an experienced for me because not all outfits suit the shoe and if I wear it wrongly, my foot will get hurt. So, I changed my wardrobe and my activities.

Then, the most astonishing things happened. I lost the new smart shoe. I don’t know what happened, suddenly it’s gone. I was so sad and felt so miserable. I looked for it everywhere but I can’t find it. At last I found out that it has been stolen and I can never get it back. It took me a couple of months to actually accept the fact that the smart shoe didn’t even fit me perfectly. I had to squeeze my foot and I had to walk very carefully or it will hurt me badly.

After a few months walking barefoot, I started to wander at shopping malls again to find a brand new shoe. I’ve tried a few shoes, but I found it so hard and tiring, because I can’t find the shoe that I want. Why is it so hard? Why are all the shoes have flaws? Why can’t they fit my foot perfectly? Maybe this time I became too careful because I don’t want to get hurt again.

Suddenly I remember my old perfect shoe. I come to understand that all these while I’ve been looking for something like it. But nothing can compare to it because it was so magical and it was definitely designed for me. I ran back home and looked for it at the corner where I threw it last time but it’s not there anymore. I was stunned at first, but then I remember…

When I was so mad at it and threw it at the corner, a friend of mine came to me and asked me if she can have it. Because I was so irritated by it, I can’t think carefully at that time, I actually said yes to her. Now I realized that I’ve gave away the most precious shoe I ever had and I will never get it back. I feel so upset because I actually didn’t lose it, but I gave it away. I have only myself to blame now. I obviously feel regrets but there’s nothing I can do about it now . I just hope that one day I will find a better shoe or at least a shoe that is as perfect as ‘My Perfect Shoe’.

p/s: i miss you, my perfect shoe .

Saturday, September 12, 2009

berbuka puasa

yesterday... ops not yesterday anymore. ok, better i put the date here..

September 10th 2009:

berbuka puasa with my beloved so-called ex-housemates at Sari Ratu Kota Damansara.
i almost couldn't make it, but maybe coz i wanted to meet them so badly, i got the permission at the very last minute. :D


love u girls so much! xoxo


all of us


raja nazrin in green! :)) ....... mummy & daddy. so sweet

p/s: it was a lovely night! i had fun!

Friday, September 11, 2009

a l o n e

loneliness is always scary! at least for me.
but right now, at this moment all i want is to be alone.
i don't want to think about past or future.
i just want my mind to be empty.

i seriously need some space.
not from family or friends or people.
but from myself. from my own juggling mind.
coz right now i feel so lost.
i don't know what i want, what's going on inside this head.
i feel so restless and i don't even know why.

someone told me that my heart is always stronger than my head.
isn't it supposed to be like that?
i thought it was designed that way?
if u don't feel good about your decision, doesn't it mean that the decision was wrong?

p/s: omg! i'm in a mess right now. i think i just need some rest. zzzzzz...

Saturday, September 05, 2009

the spell

taken from spell of the day:

We are not the same persons this year as last; nor are those we love. It is a happy chance if we, changing, continue to love a changed person.

W. Somerset Maugham (1874-1965)

it is true indeed. we are changing, so why can't we accept it when those we love changed too? i think maybe because we don't love them as much as we thought or supposed to. we love them with condition. me, myself sometimes questioned why they changed? why can't they stay the way they used to be? but i didn't realized that i've changed too.

i've been discussing with a friend about this. and we realized that feeling is something really special. it's a gift from Him to us. we can't force people to love us neither can we force ourself to love others. it comes naturally.

i believed that if we really love somebody, no matter how much they changed and no matter how long it'll took, the love will stay and will never fade away.

p/s: i just want a simple life. just go with the flow. can we actually go with the flow?

Friday, September 04, 2009

pooling around

i have a new hobby.
both of us were always bored. so this is what we've been doing everyday.



playing pool at ym. and normally i lost. :(
but it's okay, at least i've learn something than doing nothing right?

p/s: aziz, i hope boss u tak tgk blog i ni. hehehe

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

Radio

Shaking like a dog shittin' razorblades
Waking up next to nothing after dreaming of you and me
I'm waking up all alone, waking up so relieved
While you taking your time with apologies

I'm making my plans for revenge
Red eyes on orange horizons
If Columbus was wrong I'd drive straight off the edge
I'd drive straight off the edge

Taking your own life with boredom
I'm taking my own life with wine
It helps you to rule out the sorrow
It helps me to empty my mind

Making the most of a bad time
I'm smoking the brain from my head
Leaving the coal calling the kettle black and orange and red
This kettle is seeing red

I've got the big fat fuckin' bone to pick with you my darling
In case you haven't heard I'm sick and tired of trying
I wish you would take my radio to bathe with you
Plugged in and ready to fall

p/s: Radio by Alkaline Trio (my old time favorite song)

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

unnerved



I don't have the nerve to let it go.
I think I have every pieces with me right now.
I still didn't manage to fully fix it.
So, I don't have the guts to hand it to others.
I am afraid that it will be blown away and I won't be able to collect it back.