Kosong

Lately I feel empty..

I have so many friends..
I got too much works..
I have not enough time..
How can empty actually took place..?

I wonder...

so what's the plan now..?

an idea crossed my mind just now.

i wanted to enjoy that place. a home i call.
i can imagine it clearly, feel it...

driving on that big road while listening to 'deliver us'...

stop at NZ and buy a big bottle of coke, or a bottle of red tea,
or better a bottle of apple flavored Barbican!
also a packet of chicken flavored Bika.

walking passed by lingling.. hot!
then the printing shop.. reminiscences those spraymount days and smile.
look down and walk..
those leaves on the rocks.. some cats at the side..

the swings.. and yes of course, that rock bench under the tree.
sit at the second bench on it's right side and look up.
once that tree was my sitting heights, but now i can only see the moon in between leaves.

after a while...

walk towards block C.
munching the balance of Bika..
passed by Blok B's swimming pool..
stop by at townhouse's swimming pool.
sitting under the coconut tree and view those sparkling moon rays's on the water...
...until i see those familiar face...

p/s: you'll find me...

Berakit

kata pepatah "Berakit-rakit ke hulu, berenang-renang ke tepian.. Bersakit-sakit dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian.."

Ya, aku sedang berakit..
Sedang menuju ke hulu..

Tuhan Maha Kaya.
Walau hambanya tak mengingati-Nya setiap masa, tapi Dia tetap memberikan apa yg dipinta.
Beruntunglah mereka-mereka yang senantiasa mendekati-Nya.
Pasti termakbul setiap permintaan.

"Bekerjalah seperti kita akan hidup seribu tahun lagi.."

Maafkan saya kerana terlalu sibuk mengejar cita-cita.
Maafkan saya kerana tiada masa utk kalian semua.

Ini semua bukan untuk saya sahaja.
Cita-cita saya utk memberikan yg terbaik buat semua yg telah berjasa.
Jadi maafkanlah saya untuk hanya seketika cuma...

p/s: buat keluarga tercinta. saya terpaksa. ini untuk kita semua. maafkan saya. insyaAllah ada pulangan buat semuanya. tolong doakan saya, kerana ia bukan utk saya sahaja. baik & buruk sekarang, semoga indah di akan datang.

this way

what will you feel if sumone in this world can't live comfortably without you?
And all you know is you didn't do anything much..

and people say you should move forward or just stay away.

can I actually choose to stay this way coz i prefer forever..

p/s: unconditional

success revenge

someone once said
"success is the sweetest form of revenge"

what will you say to a person if you are now successful but it was not a sweet revenge at all cause you wish you are sharing that celebration with that person?

Perfect Partner

just want to let you know that I am really sorry.
it's been too long since i said this to you but 'i love you'.

i was always been trying to proof that you don't love me.
i guess i'm too afraid to trust you.

and now when i finally believe you, i realized that you have gone too far ahead...

p/s: and i'll stay here, mourning for a while...

inside thoughts

it's been so long and I have no one to share this..

what if i'm still with him?
how would it be?
will we be happy?

i don't know..

there are days, times & moments
when i wish he was with me
tell me that everything is gonna be alright
like he always did..

yes, it took me so long..
to realize that he is gone..
to reminiscence and actually admit to myself..
i made mistake.. it was a mistake..

but i know it's just too late..
we can't turn back..
he won't turn back..

all i know is he is now in no more misery..
smiling.. happy..

thank you for giving me so much to remember..
i'll pray for your happiness.. always..
for that's all i can give..

p/s: sometimes i wish i could see your face.. to make sure that you were real..