inside thoughts

it's been so long and I have no one to share this..

what if i'm still with him?
how would it be?
will we be happy?

i don't know..

there are days, times & moments
when i wish he was with me
tell me that everything is gonna be alright
like he always did..

yes, it took me so long..
to realize that he is gone..
to reminiscence and actually admit to myself..
i made mistake.. it was a mistake..

but i know it's just too late..
we can't turn back..
he won't turn back..

all i know is he is now in no more misery..
smiling.. happy..

thank you for giving me so much to remember..
i'll pray for your happiness.. always..
for that's all i can give..

p/s: sometimes i wish i could see your face.. to make sure that you were real..