Quill Pen & Ink

Missing You

2012-01-19T10:26:00.007+08:00

To those who miss me.. who miss home.. who miss their good old days..

This one is for you...

Good job to everyone's involve..

Those smile of yours will always be remembered.. Peace!

;)

Twenty Twelve

2012-01-03T16:27:00.003+08:00

Welcome 2012!

P/s: I celebrate new year by the beach for the first time.. ;)

Big Fat Cheech

2011-12-12T13:29:00.009+08:00

Let me introduce you to someone close to my heart...

he's a Big Fat Cat living in a studio called

Bsync Productions..

Being a supervisor, he stalks me a lot!

Hello..!

Meet Mohd Cheech..! :D

most of the time, he just spend his days..

snorring heavily...~ pfft

dia makan 'Fussie Cat' 2 kali sehari..

sekian...

p/s: Cheech pernah hilang 3 hari sebab merajuk food dia abis.. :(

Landasan Durian

2011-11-21T14:08:00.013+08:00

Sape yang tahu kat Ulu Bernam ada airport?

Dan sape yang pernah jumpe airport di dusun durian?

Pernah tengok kapal terbang parking di bawah pokok durian??

Aku dah pergi, tengok dan ambil gambar.. hehehe... ^_^

A weekend getaway with my family and beloved areyang..

Thank you so much to Kapten OpsIterForgotHisName (nanti aku tanya abah) for inviting us to visit this amazing land of his..

A peaceful place located in the middle of palm oil plantation, at the border of Selangor and Perak, it took us about one and a half hour drive from Shah Alam..

This airfield can accomodate a few private airplanes.

They also provide flying lesson (I so gonna learn how to fly!!)

Owh, did I mention that this land is also a Dusun Durian?? Heaven..!

The best part about this place is, there's a few challets should anyone interested in spending a night or two here!

What a sweet holiday...~

p/s: I'll be back.. with equipments.. ^_^

the Most Important thing

2011-11-11T11:51:00.003+08:00

Salah: Life’s Forgotten Purpose

Man has taken many journeys throughout time. But there is one journey that nobody has ever taken.

Nobody—except one.

On a vehicle no man has ever ridden, through a path no soul has ever seen. To a place no creation has ever before set foot. It was the journey of one man to meet the Divine. It was the journey of Muhammad ﷺ, prophet of God, to the highest heaven.

It was al Israa wal Miraaj (the magnificent journey).

On that journey Allah took his beloved prophet ﷺ to the seventh heaven—a place not even angel Gibreel could enter. In the Prophet’s mission on earth, every instruction, every commandment was sent down through angel Gibreel. But, there was one commandment that was not. There was one commandment so important, that rather than sending angel Gibreel down with it, Allah brought the Prophet ﷺ up to Himself.

That commandment was salah (prayer). When the Prophet ﷺ was first given the command to pray, it was to be fifty times in a day. After asking Allah to make it easier, the commandment was eventually reduced to five times a day, with the reward of the fifty.

Reflecting upon this incident scholars have explained that the process of going from fifty to five was a deliberate one, intended to teach us the true place salah should hold in our lives. Imagine for a moment actually praying fifty times a day. Would we be able to do anything else but pray? No. And that’s the point. What greater way than that to illustrate our life’s true purpose? As if to say, salah is our real life; all the rest that we fill our day with…just motions.

And yet, we live as if it’s exactly the opposite. Salah is something we squeeze into our day, when we find time—if that. Our ‘lives’ don’t revolve around salah. Salah revolves around our ‘lives.’ If we’re in class, salah is an afterthought. If we’re at the mall, the Macy’s sale is more urgent. Something is seriously wrong when we put aside the very purpose of our existence in order to watch a basketball game.

And that is for those who even pray at all. There are those who have not only put aside their life’s purpose, they have abandoned it completely. What we often don’t realize about the abandonment of salah is this: No scholar has ever held the opinion that committing zina(fornication) makes you a disbeliever. No scholar has ever held the opinion that stealing, drinking or taking drugs makes you a disbeliever. No scholar has even claimed that murder makes you a non-Muslim. But, about salah, some scholars have said he who abandons it, is no longer Muslim. This is said based on ahadith such as this one: “The covenant between us and them is prayer, so if anyone abandons it, he has become a disbeliever.” [Ahmad]

Imagine an act so egregious that the Prophet ﷺ would speak about it is such a way. Consider for a moment what satan did wrong. He didn’t refuse to believe in Allah. He refused to make one sajdah. Just one. Imagine all the sajdahs we refuse to make.

Consider the seriousness of such a refusal. And yet, think how lightly we take the matter ofsalah. Salah is the first thing we will be asked about on the Day of Judgment, and yet it is the last thing that is on our mind. The Prophet ﷺ said: “The first thing which will be judged among a man’s deeds on the Day of Resurrection is the Prayer. If this is in good order then he will succeed and prosper but if it is defective then he will fail and will be a loser.” [Tirmidhi]

On that Day, the people of paradise will ask those who have entered Hell-fire, why they have entered it. And the Qur’an tells us exactly what their first response will be: ”What led you into Hell Fire? They will say: ‘We were not of those who prayed.’” (Qur’an, 74:42-43)

How many of us will be among those who say “we were not of those who prayed, or we were not of those who prayed on time, or we were not of those who made prayer any priority in our lives?” Why is it that if we’re in class or at work or fast asleep at the time of fajr and we need to use the restroom, we make time for that? In fact, the question almost sounds absurd. We don’t even consider it an option not to. And even if we were taking the most important exam of our lives, when we need to go, we will go. Why? Because the potentially mortifying consequences of not going, makes it a non-option.

There are many people who say they don’t have time to pray at work or school, or while they’re out. But how many have ever said they don’t have time to go to the bathroom, so while out, at work or school have opted instead to just wear Depends? How many of us just don’t feel like waking up at Fajr time if we need to use the bathroom, and choose instead to wet our bed? The truth is we’ll get out of bed, or leave class, or stop work, to use the bathroom, but not to pray.

It sounds comical, but the truth is we put the needs of our body above the needs of our soul. We feed our bodies, because if we didn’t, we’d die. But so many of us starve our souls, forgetting that if we are not praying our soul is dead. And ironically, the body that we tend to is only temporary, while the soul that we neglect is eternal.

taken from http://www.yasminmogahed.com/

Qur'an 7:158 Surah Al-A'raf
Say (O Muhammad): "O men! I am sent unto you all as the apostle of Allah to Whom belongeth the dominion of the heavens and the earth: there is no god but He: it is He that giveth both life and death. So believe in Allah and His apostle the unlettered Prophet who believed in Allah and His words: follow him that (so) ye may be guided."

p/s: Because I'm human.. I am forgetful...

Kali yg ke-Dua

2011-10-28T16:01:00.003+08:00

I've been wondering whether or not I deserve a second chance.

After what I've done.. Too proud to even admit my mistake & apologize truly..

As time pass by, I realized that I will not be getting any..

After 2 long years, I accepted that it's already become history, past tense..

No turning back, no second chance...

And then... it happen... God finally answer my prayer..

It may not be fully the same but it's better, as I always wanted..

Thank you Ya Allah.. You are indeed the most merciful...

And this time I won't loose it again..

I won't make room for unforgivable mistake..

Areyang,

Thank you so much for loving me..

For accepting me the way I am, an imperfect human being..

I'm sorry to say that you sometimes remind me of him..

I believe, you are my second chance..

And I'm glad I made a mistake the first time...

For it shaped me the way I am today and leads me to you...

p/s: good things happen when we least expected it.. just be patient...

The Way

2011-09-27T11:49:00.004+08:00

Don't treat me like a maid..
For I will hate your voice over..

Don't treat me like a mother..
For you will hate my voice over and over..

Don't treat me like a daughter..
For you will have to listen to me no matter..

Don't treat me like a sister..
For I will not listen to you forever..

Treat me as Your Other..
Or you may call it Lover..
For we will always understand each other..

p/s: DM.. ;)

Areyang~

2011-09-08T14:26:00.010+08:00

I was ordered to go to the show on a very last minute basis (as usual).

It was bored at first (pasal takde keje)..

Sat behind me boss and watch him working.. Suddenly a guy in army pants with covered face walked in front of me.. And my heart melt immediately.. :P

He wanted to use me mac suddenly, and I let him be.. we didn't talk to each other at all..

After show, he suddenly asked me "nak balik dah? bile nak jumpe lagi?" and I remembered answering "bile ada show lagi.." huhu.. *blushed*

As I was driving back, I can't keep him off my head.. Smiling all the way.. haha!

I didn't know his name, I forgot his company name, I know nothing about this guy..

For a few weeks... there's no sign of him at all, we got no show and truthfully I didn't think about him..

I thought we will never see each other again...

God's will...

we met again.. at my studio.. this time we get to know each other...

Today... he call me sayang... the end.

p/s: i think i deserve a beautiful thing...~

pss: Sore - 7/7/11 - Bentley Music

Eid 1432

2011-08-28T03:02:00.002+08:00

p/s: May all sins be forgiven, as all mistakes learnt.. May a year older be a year wiser.. Happy Eid-Mubarak 1432 to all Muslims all over the world.. Untuk semua yg mengenali, maaf zahir batin...~

Jumpe Lagi..?

2011-08-17T11:48:00.005+08:00

I think i'm used to difficult makes easy seems a little unrealistic.

Sometimes I used to fail, success just feels unacceptable.

Pray.. Believe.. Accept...

p/s: Dear God, i am grateful for every prayer you granted... YOU ARE.. the most merciful!

LailatulQadr

2011-08-01T20:47:00.006+08:00

Al-Qadr (Power, Fate)

Translation of the Qur'an, Surah 97:

097.001

YUSUFALI: We have indeed revealed this (Message) in the Night of Power:

097.002

YUSUFALI: And what will explain to thee what the night of power is?

097.003

YUSUFALI: The Night of Power is better than a thousand months.

097.004

YUSUFALI: Therein come down the angels and the Spirit by Allah's permission, on every errand:

097.005

YUSUFALI: Peace!...This until the rise of morn!

p/s: Sodakallahul'azim...

Ahlan wa-Sahlan

2011-07-30T03:21:00.005+08:00

Ahlan wa-sahlan Ya Ramadhan..

P/s: For the first time in my entire life, I won't be able to start fasting on the 1st of Ramadhan.

.........

I would like to express my gratitude..

For every prayers granted.. syukur Alhamdulillah...

I planned my life, I work for it.. But Allah knows better.

He took away what I wanted, but He gave me what I needed..

For that, thank you Ya Allah.. for I am just your creation...

I made mistakes...

Hope Ramadhan will bring me closer to You... Amiiiiin~

Life is Live

2011-07-03T11:19:00.004+08:00

"Stop acting as if life is a rehearsal.

Live this day as if it were your last.

The past is over and gone.

The future is not guaranteed."

Wayne Dyer

p/s: sabar.. maka tidak mengalah...

unspoken

2011-06-06T01:22:00.000+08:00

because i can't do it verbally...

iBsync

2011-06-05T15:39:00.006+08:00

playing with a.i

Selain-mu

2011-06-02T01:22:00.005+08:00

...

Sometimes it's just easier when I leave it all to Him.

Have an empty mind and just ask Him to show the way.

Go with the flow like people always say..

Hurtful is poison to give meaning to cure..

Then comes happiness as medicine and saviour..

Doubtful is just an antivirus to prevent total dissapointment..

With gratitude there's always rewards and satisfaction..

In the end of the day, nothing is bad if it comes from Him..

Syukur.. Alhamdulillah...

p/s: once again... I need You...

Fly

2011-05-29T13:17:00.000+08:00

You make me high..~

Music Industry

2011-04-26T11:22:00.006+08:00

Music industry in Malaysia can grow!

But first, Malaysian need to understand that a concert is not just about the artiste and glamour.

It's a professional industry where we have musicians, sound engineers, lighting designer, stage manager, and crew(s) whom are the backbone of a show and they work really hard (most of the time even harder than the artiste) in order to make sure the concert went well... These people are really really super important and if they are not good, no matter how great and talented the artiste is, there will never be a good show. Trust me!

I think it's time for the media to educate Malaysian if we want this industry to grow better and faster. We should learn from Western on this if we want to have the same quality show as theirs.

It can be done. All we need to do is stop the stupid condemn and work hard to improve.

p/s: seriously.. Malaysia Boleh! (when all malaysian believe)

a couple of months

2011-04-16T12:51:00.001+08:00

Cause you amazing just the way you are...~

sweet bastard

2011-03-09T10:32:00.006+08:00

you are amazing!

p/s: i won't fall...

Idealess

2011-03-01T21:47:00.005+08:00

February is over..

Happy belated birthday to you..

Whenever I lack of idea, I will think of him..

How ungrateful I was, not to appreciate the one person who always fed me with great ideas..

It's been so long..

Yet I still can't forget...

The way he squeezed his brain and stayed by my side whenever I need..

Ditch everything else just to make sure I finish my work..

Gave me strength every time I cried..

Days and nights, he helped me unconditionally..

Thank you a million... I will never ever forget your kindness and sincerity..

I don't know until when I'll be asking your forgiveness..

I totally understand if you hate me and can't forgive me..

But I really want you to know that I am truly deeply sorry...

p/s: Men are bastards.. You are certainly not one of them...

Eat Pray Love

2011-01-31T18:33:00.004+08:00

I love to watch movies, but not many of it really caught my attention.

This is one of the movies that caught me.

I watched it over and over again almost every late night last week.

I asked some friends about this movie and it surprised me that most of them said it's kinda boring and slow.

Not many good reviews that I got.

I come to understand that some stories are meant only for some people, and I am one of them in this case.

I can really relate with Liz's live.

All these while, I believe what she believe.

I made decisions like she did.

I felt what she felt.

I understand every words she said and thought.

It just that, I know where am I now, and I haven't reach the ending scenes.

But whether or not, my ending will be like hers, I am truly honestly not sure at all.

All I can do now is just Eat.. Pray & Love..

p/s: I need to have the book!

Peace Upon All

2011-01-10T11:57:00.017+08:00

Happy New Year!!!
(mmg lambat, takde time nak update)

Peace Upon All…

2011 Resolution: Work Smarter! Go Further! Frequent Laughter!!!

A really great start for this year with Acoustic Nights.
The most exciting and satisfying show I ever get involved with so far..

Thanks so much to our talented artistes;
Aizat, Zainal Abidin, Bittersweet, Pesawat, Adibah Noor and especially Atilia the Producer of Acoustic Nights.. for making it happened tastefully..

And most importantly a million thanks to Adam (me boss) for giving me the chance to start this year with smile and laughter. Idea lu memang gempak ar boss! Salute!!!
And also to Bsync Productions team! Love you guys lots!

p/s: thanks to all my friends who went and support the show! For those who missed, you can watch this live recording on Astro Hitz Channel 705 soon!

War/No More Trouble

2010-12-30T15:55:00.003+08:00

p/s: Splendid Sound Unite the World!

lines

2010-11-04T17:53:00.004+08:00

I've sealed my heart in the middle of a deep blue ocean but it was hit by a sinking ship..

It was fixed and I let it float in the sky in believing that only he with wings can catch..

and then they built an airplane and once again my heart got broken..

Now I let it go in pieces so I can travel around the world looking for it all while enjoying the views...

p/s: the sun is burning.. the stars are stunning.. call me a fool but morning arising...

Chance to change

2010-10-12T11:19:00.003+08:00

If you get the chance,
what will you change?
If you get the chance,
what would you like to repair?

Chances are we will not get the chance to change the past..

Regret is a lesson..
Regret is for us to think..
Regret is for us to refine..

I don't want to change my past..
I want to better my future..
I no longer living in those days..
I am living today..

My life depend on me and only me..
Only I know what I want..
Only I can define my happiness..
and I already get the glimpse of it..

p/s: Overwhelmed with gratitude...

Cyberway

2010-10-11T11:42:00.005+08:00

Driving this morning with a smile on my face.
No traffic jam, no stress.
32km and 25 minutes journey to Bsync.
Great!

I always wanted to go back to Cyber.
I always wanted to live in Cyber.

And I think it's about time.
To actually living the dream...

p/s: I was on the verge to miss you

I could really use a wish right now

2010-10-02T22:52:00.001+08:00

p/s: And you hoping but them people never call you back

Fall in love

2010-10-02T00:50:00.003+08:00

When you 'fall' in love...

You tend to hurt yourself..
You'll be feeling insecure..
You become demanding..

So.. don't fall in love..
If you really like love so much, you can stay high on love...~

Main untuk Tukar

2010-09-28T20:36:00.002+08:00

p/s: impian...

Do you remember?

2010-09-27T22:36:00.006+08:00

1999, North Malaysia -

It's 9.00pm and my heart beating so fast..
I looked at the wall-clock on my right and turned my head to the left to look outside the window once again..
His porch was still dark..

9.15pm.
God! I can't open my eyes..
It's too quiet.. super silence..
I can hear the sound of a pen falling so loud and clear..
My eyes slowly closing....

9.25pm
I can't stand it anymore..
I looked at the book in front of me..
'Sejarah. Tingkatan 3'
I turned the pages and stopped when I read
'Pya Songram Ramu Wisit Asmara Pya Perlis' (if i'm not mistaken)
Smiled alone...

9.30pm
Damn! he's right in front of me.. standing tall..
no question and no explanation..
He signaled and I raised my left hand in the air..
Piap!!!!! piap...!! piap....! (echo)

Then he reached for the red book..
He turned the pages impatiently until he found an empty one..
Some of my friends' book were still empty..
He returned it back to me..
I looked at it and read silently...
'senyum masa study'

p/s: just reminiscing.. We used to call him Pak Mahad.. My warden.. Today I added him on fb.. Not quite sure if he remember me and those days..

AidilFitri

2010-09-13T18:55:00.006+08:00

From the bottom of my heart..
May all the mistakes and sins be forgiven..
May all ungrateful be forgotten..
May all the bad words be erased..

...and those wonderful memories stay...

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri
Maaf Zahir & Batin

p/s: i'm browsing and found AJ File and wonder why I made room for mistake..!

Round

2010-09-02T11:32:00.004+08:00

If Columbus is not wrong..
when i turn right and you turn left..
we should just keep walking..
and at some point..
We'll meet...

I won't wait and you shouldn't too..

When we finally met, there will be so much to exchange and share..
And we can walk the circle together afterward..
With love, pride & joy...

p/s: can't despise the faith.. and i believe you wouldn't too...

am i right?

2010-08-28T00:06:00.013+08:00

first of all.. this post is meant for you..

so i guess i was right all these while..
you are not meant for me..
we are better as friends although it's just a virtual friendship..
don't you agree?

...

we shared amazing memories..
you thought me a lot of lessons..
you helped me in almost everything..
i admit...

up to the point where I somehow doubt if there's really someone better..

I broke your heart..
I turn you down..
I walked away..
for that, i'm really sorry..

But...
you are now perfectly happy..

So...
please tell me that i made the right decision after all..
that she is better for you which means there is the one for me too...

p/s: can you be my forever friends?

dream far

2010-08-26T14:43:00.005+08:00

Imagination is better than knowledge...

p/s: i'll make it happen.. my way...

Korapsi

2010-08-25T19:03:00.006+08:00

If only they realized how big is the affect towards one's small life..
I work hard enough for this to loose it just like that..
Not even get the chance to present..

Why don't you just told us beforehand..

"Hi, please come for a meeting. Don't forget to use your own money traveling to this faraway land to meet us and then go back and wreck your brain thinking of how we are going to make this happen well, and waste all your time including those berbuka puasa with family & friends to think of the ideas then design everything and don't come back because we actually don't really need you for this is just a procedure which we actually already have our own people for this.."

Thank you Malaysia! I always heart you!

p/s: this is one hell of f-ing corrupshit! and those were just 20% of the whole story..

Belum

2010-08-24T20:48:00.004+08:00

Belum kita bermula
Belum dalam pon rasa
Terhenti tiba-tiba
Kerna cerita lama

Kuucap semua kata
Tiada janji ku cipta
Cuma ikhlas semata
Tak perlu kau terima

Kalau kau bukan milikku
Bukan yang aku tunggu
Perlukah kau tahu
Kau hampiri hatiku

Suatu waktu nanti
Belum ada yang pasti
Kita takkan mengerti
Belum yang bukan kini

p/s: try not to think of you.. you smile then i melt... broke the rules...

Blank

2010-08-17T22:46:00.002+08:00

I need IDEAS, like seriously..
Whining does no justice.. i'm still blank..
Nowhere to start always the hardest part..

I'm too busy to post about Singapore..
But I desperately wanna write something..

I got a priority which somehow is really hard to focus on..
my mind is like a helium balloon now..
I need to hold the rope really tightly or it will fly so high..
luckily standing proudly beside me is the greatest day-dreaming catcher..
But it's not pretty nice to get caught floating, ain't it?

p/s: i'm tired with this game already...

Impossible

2010-08-15T19:18:00.001+08:00

p/s: I was careless I forgot

Once

2010-07-28T15:43:00.003+08:00

A good movie combines with great songs.
Nice...

p/s: i'm thinking of you smiling

Kosong

2010-07-26T18:01:00.003+08:00

Lately I feel empty..

I have so many friends..
I got too much works..
I have not enough time..
How can empty actually took place..?

I wonder...

so what's the plan now..?

2010-07-16T18:58:00.005+08:00

an idea crossed my mind just now.

i wanted to enjoy that place. a home i call.
i can imagine it clearly, feel it...

driving on that big road while listening to 'deliver us'...

stop at NZ and buy a big bottle of coke, or a bottle of red tea,
or better a bottle of apple flavored Barbican!
also a packet of chicken flavored Bika.

walking passed by lingling.. hot!
then the printing shop.. reminiscences those spraymount days and smile.
look down and walk..
those leaves on the rocks.. some cats at the side..

the swings.. and yes of course, that rock bench under the tree.
sit at the second bench on it's right side and look up.
once that tree was my sitting heights, but now i can only see the moon in between leaves.

after a while...

walk towards block C.
munching the balance of Bika..
passed by Blok B's swimming pool..
stop by at townhouse's swimming pool.
sitting under the coconut tree and view those sparkling moon rays's on the water...
...until i see those familiar face...

p/s: you'll find me...

Berakit

2010-07-05T19:15:00.003+08:00

kata pepatah "Berakit-rakit ke hulu, berenang-renang ke tepian.. Bersakit-sakit dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian.."

Ya, aku sedang berakit..
Sedang menuju ke hulu..

Tuhan Maha Kaya.
Walau hambanya tak mengingati-Nya setiap masa, tapi Dia tetap memberikan apa yg dipinta.
Beruntunglah mereka-mereka yang senantiasa mendekati-Nya.
Pasti termakbul setiap permintaan.

"Bekerjalah seperti kita akan hidup seribu tahun lagi.."

Maafkan saya kerana terlalu sibuk mengejar cita-cita.
Maafkan saya kerana tiada masa utk kalian semua.

Ini semua bukan untuk saya sahaja.
Cita-cita saya utk memberikan yg terbaik buat semua yg telah berjasa.
Jadi maafkanlah saya untuk hanya seketika cuma...

p/s: buat keluarga tercinta. saya terpaksa. ini untuk kita semua. maafkan saya. insyaAllah ada pulangan buat semuanya. tolong doakan saya, kerana ia bukan utk saya sahaja. baik & buruk sekarang, semoga indah di akan datang.

this way

2010-06-19T02:48:00.002+08:00

what will you feel if sumone in this world can't live comfortably without you?
And all you know is you didn't do anything much..

and people say you should move forward or just stay away.

can I actually choose to stay this way coz i prefer forever..

p/s: unconditional

success revenge

2010-06-10T22:31:00.003+08:00

someone once said
"success is the sweetest form of revenge"

what will you say to a person if you are now successful but it was not a sweet revenge at all cause you wish you are sharing that celebration with that person?

Perfect Partner

2010-06-09T01:27:00.004+08:00

just want to let you know that I am really sorry.
it's been too long since i said this to you but 'i love you'.

i was always been trying to proof that you don't love me.
i guess i'm too afraid to trust you.

and now when i finally believe you, i realized that you have gone too far ahead...

p/s: and i'll stay here, mourning for a while...

inside thoughts

2010-06-01T18:48:00.003+08:00

it's been so long and I have no one to share this..

what if i'm still with him?
how would it be?
will we be happy?

i don't know..

there are days, times & moments
when i wish he was with me
tell me that everything is gonna be alright
like he always did..

yes, it took me so long..
to realize that he is gone..
to reminiscence and actually admit to myself..
i made mistake.. it was a mistake..

but i know it's just too late..
we can't turn back..
he won't turn back..

all i know is he is now in no more misery..
smiling.. happy..

thank you for giving me so much to remember..
i'll pray for your happiness.. always..
for that's all i can give..

p/s: sometimes i wish i could see your face.. to make sure that you were real..

Letter

2010-05-28T20:56:00.003+08:00

10 things i hate about you!

1. i try not to remember.. but the memories are getting clearer...
2. i try not to think of you, but my fingers googled your name..
3. i try to keep my ego, but i keep losing the grip..
4. i try to keep the thought that u are not good for me, but your kindness & sincerity keep popping in my head.
5. i try comparing you with everyone, but you keep winning the fight..
6. i try to keep the bad memories, but it always sweeter than present.
7. i try to say that i hate you, but it hurts inside.
8. i try to erase your name from my mind, but it's getting clearer in my heart..
9. i don't want you let alone live with you, but its getting unsure..
10. i don't want you to know that i actually really love you..but i am writing this to u...

p/s: please tell me you don't love me.

manipulation

2010-05-27T18:11:00.003+08:00

when i was driving this morning, i suddenly came across something that lead me to share with you my thoughts of the day..

for centuries, we growing up with believe that man is higher than woman.
i grew up believing that.
no matter what, man will always be the best leader.
yes, 'leader'.. and they should be..

but what happened was 'some of them' abused the faith.
some who were born with insecurity, low-self esteem, yet egoistic.
so they 'create' this thing, use it and manipulate women who have all the faith in their leadership!

when men did 'things' it's called "cool or okay"! but when women did 'the same things' it's called "cheap or stupid"..

think about it...

p/s: true man believe in facts and understanding.

Hachiko

2010-05-22T03:36:00.003+08:00

It's been quite a while since i cried wholeheartedly watching a movie.

The last movie that made me cry was 'Children of Heaven'.

Today i've cried like i never been crying before watching this greatest emotional movie i ever watch..

Base on a true story, here i recommend you to watch this heartwarming American adaptation of a Japanese tale about a loyal dog named HACHIKO..

p/s: sebelum tekan play, make sure ada tisue sekotak kat sebelah mkay!

Step Back a Bit

2010-05-20T20:24:00.012+08:00

I just read back my posts (gile bosan kan), and I just realized all of it are full with emotions lately.
I haven't post about what really happened in my life now..
There's no humor and my writings are not fun anymore..
OMG, am I old??

Okay, lets not freak out..
Here it is.. the fun Diana again.. tadaaaa! (fun la sangat kan!)

First of all, let’s start with photos (owh, i love photos, tp baru teringat mozilla ni block aku dari upload photos. patutla post aku asyik takde gambar je! pffft! tapi aku dah tau skang, aku bole pakai i.e. hahaha! in you face!)

Owh ooo, before we start with the photos;
Last 2 weeks I went to Penang for Elevate Rock Concert Tour 2010 with of course my Big Boss and 40 Winks. It’s been awhile since I have a trip with so many heads. Okay, let’s talk with the photos…

The 40 Winks

On the way to see him

yes him! Muhammad Qalif bin Muhammad Muaz (the cute little boy!)

behind the scene

oghang kampong!

ah ha! The Big Boss!

40 Winks on stage

And after the hectic yet satisfied day, we were so lucky to witness this beautiful foreworks on the way to Feringghi (ayat mcm tak pernah tgk fireworks kan)..

And our day ended with great food, pretty colors and so much of laughter...

p/s: aku akan figure out ape masalah pc ni yg susah sangat aku nak upload photos & tulis blog ni mcm dulu. Soon. Very very soon!

what's better

2010-05-19T22:53:00.002+08:00

what is better than happiness?

when someone ask you to do something, and you think twice..
you wonder whether it's right or wrong..
you start considering every possibilities..
then ask yourself, if you do it will that make you happy?

when someone ask you to stop doing something..
and you start questioning, what's the benefit of stopping..
whether it's good or not for you..
what will happen if you don't..
then STOP!

What is better than be happy?
What is better than be just who you are..
If you think you are still a kid.. than be a kid..

Cause sooner or later you will come to that point..
When you easily differentiate what is good and what is bad..
No one in the world can prove it better than yourself..

What will you learn if everything is told..
How do you know that it was wrong if you never face it..
Who are they to decide your life for you?

They have walked through it..
It's unfair if they closed the door for you just because they fall in front of it..
That might not be theirs, but those doors may be designed for you..

There are so many ways to live life..
Everyone have their own..
for nothing exist with no purpose..

p/s: I know you are there, and i want you to know that you are always here in my heart...

to call my own

2010-05-10T21:20:00.004+08:00

I don't know what I feel right now.
I don't know why I feel so alone despite being surrounded by colorful people.
I don't know why I can hardly smile lately.
What's wrong with me?

What I want?
I question that everyday, still I have no answer.

I miss those days of laughter.
I miss those days when I shed tears.
Those days used to feel so real.
Those days used to Be so real!
If only I didn't experience so much...

I heard the greetings, "Welcome to the real life!" so many times till I ain't believe in real life no more.

If all of the days are real life, which one is fake?
And if there are any, how can I tell when I feel the feelings everyday.

How can we forget things especially when it's pretty.
Who are we to decide what to forget when we believed those were real.

p/s: i'm scared and i just realized why..

Post it

2010-05-06T00:34:00.004+08:00

"When the dog bites and the bee stings, I simply remember..."

I miss those days when I was in misery and I don't have to think where to turn to..

p/s: you had me at hello~

It'll be over

2010-05-04T17:11:00.004+08:00

Everything will be over soon.
I believe.
When my hair turned all white, i'll sit on a bench and said, wow.. what a life!

Like all of you, my life is colorful.
Full with stories. Never ending drama.
'Boring' is a word that act as a paint to cover all the trouble in my mind.

I never thought I would come to that point when adult just smile and said, "nothing", and hoping that others won't see the troubles that fill the eyes.
Can't believe that I'm the citizen of adulthood right now.
Which problems are like rice when I was just a little girl.
Like it or not, I have to eat it and continue surviving, because complaining about it will make it worst.

'It's a cruel world' is said as a quiet protest.

I need a shoulder to cry on.
I need someone who can understand my silence and know just what's right to do.
With less talk and unnoticeable actions.

p/s: there's a roller coaster in my mind and the break is broken.

mind blocked

2010-04-23T18:36:00.002+08:00

there's so many things in my mind right now.
i want to type, but i lost the words..
but i wanted to do it so badly, to listen to the waterfall sound from my keyboard.

so, i think.. why not i just type whatever that come across my mind.
ok let's try..
i'm gonna shut down this pc as soon as i satisfied.
i'm gonna wash my car, then immediately shoot to May's.
redang... i'm supposed to be excited.. actually i am excited but i hold it back.
i don't want to feel it now. i wanna be me 16 years back. i want to scream and sing the car.
so i hold it back now.. it must begin when we start the journey!

ok, i lost words again.. i'm gonna go now.. Redang! here I come!!! tehehehe..

p/s: don't know why i like you..
and don't why God gave me this feelings so many times in life..

Here I Am

2010-04-21T22:18:00.002+08:00

Lately I spent most of the time at this office..
(in fact right now i'm in the office)...
But I am happier than ever..
Work is getting better and better..
Each day I learn new things and everyday I drive home smiling..

New lessons plus new experiences..
Friendship that I never know existed being build and getting stronger..
Professionalism stays at it's place..

Thank you to all Bsync friends (i will not say this at your face, you know)..
I owe you guys lots and lots of thanks..
I will not be here today without all of you (syahdu plak tetibe kan)

Anyway, you guys are the greatest & most fun colleague i ever had!
Thank you Adam (bukan collegue la ni, tp boss)
Thank you Ein @ Abang Garang, Muaz, Najib & Alex (Irsyad termasuk gakla ni).

Terima Kasih daun keladi.. sila beri tunjuk ajar lagi.. *winks*

p/s: I am here.. waiting for you...

You Got Me

2010-04-18T04:14:00.001+08:00

p/s: yes, i like you~

perfect sunday

2010-04-11T21:36:00.006+08:00

Sunday comes once again
It's time to chill at the studio
Paperwork as an excuse
So I can listen to you

Watching you looking at me
Try to say hello.. but I said bro..!

Would you say today
is a perfect Sunday
Would you take my hand
Shake to declare friends?
Can I call your name
Without feeling shame?
Can we get closer
And learn bout each other?

Sunday comes once again
It's time to chill at the studio
Watching you looking at me
Try to say hello.. but I said bro..!

Would you say today
is a perfect Sunday
Would you take my hand
Shake to declare friends?
Can I call your name
Without feeling shame?
Can we get closer
And learn bout each other?

p/s: *winks

uncertainties

2010-03-31T20:35:00.002+08:00

to be perfectly honest i'm not sure..
what is right and what is wrong..
my heart or my mind..?
why am i always in this situation..?

bak kata org tua²,
"ikut hati mati.. ikut rasa binasa"

so in the end, i do what i'm urge to do at that time..
yet still i'm not sure whether it's right or wrong..

i just hope that it was the right decision after all..
i pray that my heart and my mind will be satisfied..
because i don't know how to make the left decision...

p/s: i'm so sorry.. never meant to hurt you.. if you know me well, u should know that what i did, i did it for you...

after Midnight

2010-03-30T11:32:00.001+08:00

After midnight I shall kidnap you from the world
And I'll keep you in my room
Hush now my love and hold my hand
After midnight I shall take you to a place
Where no one else should know of
Hush now my love and hold my hand

You are exactly where you supposed to be
And if they come for you
They would have to find me

Stay
Keep me awake keep me amazed
Only for today
Keep me dazed
My love is yours only

After midnight
I shall stay awake
And if you chose to close your eyes now
Hush now my love
I'll watch you sleep

You are exactly where you supposed to be
And if they come for you
They would have to find me

Stay
Keep me awake keep me amazed
Only for today
Keep me dazed
My love is yours only...

Longing

2010-03-25T14:55:00.005+08:00

I can see your smile
I can hear your laugh
I can feel your touch

I can't see you through my eyes
But I feel you in this heart
You are not here even so I know you exist

It's too many of them
Yet you are visible
Standing tall among the others

Behold if you are still not ready
Take your time for I still need mine too
Stay there and I will not move away

This longing is never a burden
Because I believe above all you are always & forever the best
In time the world will move us closer...

who to blame?

2010-03-23T17:01:00.008+08:00

Who to blame?
When we sent sms and the person who received it, read it with different intonation or interpreted the words wrongly..

There are so many words that has few different meanings. That's not included words that was not in the dictionary like 'poyo', 'terer', 'siyot'...
We also have so many intonation, and if we use it wrongly people can misunderstood us easily..
But at least, if we were talking face to face, we can correct the other person if they were wrong.

Technology is supposed to help us doing things faster and easier..
I never hate the technology. It is useful to me.
Nevertheless I learn that sometimes we need to put aside technology if we were to send the right message to others as misunderstanding can sometimes lead to hatred, and we don't want people to hate us simply because they wrongly interpreted our words..

p/s: aku sebenarnya tak suka short-forms yang melampau sebab bagi aku, masa 2 minit lebih berharga dari credit 20 sen..

Choice

2010-03-14T16:09:00.003+08:00

Last night a new friend said to me,
"everything that happen to you today is because you chose for it."

My heart responded,
"i didn't choose not to have a bf, i didn't choose to be so busy, i didn't choose to get the photo so late and end up have come to the office on Sunday!"

Today I realized....

Yes, I chose all of that. I asked for all of that. But I didn't asked for it to happen now.. I were asking for it a year ago!
Sigh.. Yes sometimes we pray and we ask from Him to grant our wishes. Little did we know that our wishes have an expired date in our life.

The hardest thing for me to do is to think carefully before I make a wish. I wish for what i want at that time without even thinking what if it happened late? What if that wish will come true but not at this time?

Today, Maksu moved to Penang. She wished to stay in Penang last year. But while waiting she had to face lots of things and without realizing it, she has accepted her life in KL and enjoying it so much. Today her last year's wish is granted when they transferred her to Penang, but she no longer want to move anymore. Ironic...

Now I'm confused. What should I do? Go with the flow? Don't ask for sumthing coz I might regret it later? But everyday I want something.. Why can't I get my wish as soon as I wish for it? Or maybe that was not the right wish after all??

Seriously right now at this moment, I don't know..

p/s: ape saje yg ada dalam kepala aku skang ni? Feel so blur...

Deeper Conversation

2010-03-09T17:03:00.001+08:00

Is your favourite colour blue?
Do you always tell the truth?
Do you believe in outerspace?
And im learning you

Is your skin as tanned as mine?
Does your hair flow sideways?
Did someone took a portion of your heart?
And im learning you

And if you dont mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears
and Everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me

I let my guard down for you
And in time you will too

..does your name rhyme with mine?

p/s: Deeper Conversation by Yuna

Tilt up a bit

2010-03-05T18:49:00.010+08:00

i got another lesson yesterday..
i stay back again.. like always...
while waiting for Cha to come and collect his cheque, i had a great chat with Adam..
yes, Adam.. my boss...

I normally will be totally disagree when someone throw me the idea that "studying is such a waste of time.." i personally don't understand why people can say that education is not important.. sigh..

but yesterday was a totally different story..
When Adam said that, i was shock..
but as usual, i will obediently listen to him because I think he is one of the successful people I encounter and i'll be the biggest jerk if i debate him straight away..

So, I ask him why he said that..
Then he started the story about his life which I will make it short here..

He was not a good student back then, in fact he's one of the worst. He didn't finish his study because he was a disgust in his college..
By that he started working and people really look down on him. Until at one point they really said all those things that make him realized that he must show them what he got.

Along the way he met lots of people, and most of the successful people didn't even go to college after school..

This is when he paused and ask me what did I learn in university? Why did I go to university?
I just keep quiet coz I don't have the answer at the time..

Then we continue with a loooong chat that give a good conclusion in the end...

it's not that education is not important and such a waste of time.. Education is the best thing you will have if you know why you want to have it..
Most of us go to college and university and take a course that we don't even sure whether that's the right one for us.
Because of that, we neglect the lessons. We 'ponteng' class. And when we go to class, we don't know what to ask because we never see the real things and we have no idea of what's the lecturer is teaching. Of course, we were just a kid...

There are so many different ways to be successful. The question now is whether we are ready or not to be one..

p/s: some of us do know how to empty their glass and fill it up with the right drink..

Occupied

2010-02-17T21:33:00.007+08:00

Malam Nada Biru
Yuna & Najwa
27th & 28th February 2010
The Actors Studio @ Lot10 Rooftop

This is one of the reason for me being soooooooo busy lately.. Bare with me my beloved people.. I'm just turning into a workaholic without even realizing it..

Wish me luck for I am praying success for each and everyone of you whom I called family and friends.. Thanks for your understanding and support.. I can never be able to payback everything..

p/s: love love & lots of love...

The day she went away

2010-02-16T10:05:00.032+08:00

As usual, i'm home at midnight..

The house is dark and quiet.. Somehow it's too quiet..

Went to the room, and switch on the light..
empty.. silence..

I'm waiting for that annoying voice to scold me like always..
"Wei kaklong..!! Tutup la lampu tu lekaih!"

"Wei, tutupla pintu tu! Nyamuk masuk satgi! Nyamuk bukan boleh sat sat!"

and on and on...

But tonight... the room is silence..

Tonight I didn't hear that voice..

Tonight nobody scold me...

I slept on the left side of the bed as usual..
the bed felt so huge..
and there's no different kind of handphone sounds, no more snoring, no more waking-up-in-the-middle-of-the-night-coz-someone-beside-me-is-kicking-me..
I should feel peaceful.. I should have sleep tightly..

But somehow I can't sleep.. The room feel so empty.. she's no longer here..

Yes..

We argue a lot! We hit each other, scold each other..
Raised voice towards each other.. Maki-hamun each other...

Nevertheless, she's my sister and deep down I love her..

Congrats My Fat Sistah! Be good there.. Make us proud..
I am proud of you!

Take care my dear.. I miss you..

~Ziera in Adelaide~

p/s: apa kena-mengena Ziera sambung study dgn aku nak kahwin plak??! ish!

Si Comey itu

2010-02-05T17:40:00.004+08:00

LepaQ Cafe..
As it was named.. it was really a 'lepak' place..
The place is nice.. all the posters and decorations are superb!
Owh.. and I so gonna find that lamp which has few different colors and it will circle and the colors will fill the whole wall.. I can already imagine that lamp on my bedroom wall.. So nice...

Anyway, despite the tiredness.. I met May and Sakip after work and we lepak there for a while..
Later I realized it was really a great idea coz there, all my tiredness has gone after I saw him!
He was super hot! His face's so cute, his long curly hair was gorgeous, he played guitar like a pro, his voice was husky and he sang very well too.. and then he smiled and i melted..
May and me got so excited when he sang our requested song which was 'unintended' by Muse.. Owh, I loooove his voice and I hope he will be a real singer one day...
And then we got so disappointed when the owner of the cafe told us that he's just 19 (ceh, macamla nak buat bf kan disappointed plak! Hahahaha!)

While listening to him, we have photo session.. huhu..
Here goes...

us

......................

Ini dia Si Comey itu!

p/s: mmg kat sini je la kiterang lepas ni~

Kota Keriangan

2010-02-03T14:58:00.008+08:00

At last!!! Yes! After 5 years of hoping and wishing, at last we got in!!

Genting Theme Park!
Roller coaster! At last we rode the rides! Weehuuu!
Cuma.... it will be better if everyone join and we were also sooo disappointed (except arm) because THE Space Shot was closed! IT WAS CLOSED! Demm it laaaa...
And it was so damn cold up there, dan aku budget kebal tak bawak sweater.. Nice! Memang Parkinson la kat atas tu kan! hahahaha!

Nevertheless we had fun!
Partners in crime: Thank you guys so much!

And of course, there's photos. How can I skip that? It won't be fun without photo kan?
Thanks Alan for bringing your fabulous camera, and for being the paparazzi of the day.. :D

screaming session!!!

k.a.m.i

Question: so lepas ni nak gi mana plak?
JaQ: Bali jom?! Ke.. Krabi??
Bona: Tanak!!! Nak pulau!
Semua orang: er??? hahahahahaha! *bengong ni bona!

p/s: so....... lepas ni ke mana kita kengkawan??

February

2010-02-02T18:08:00.004+08:00

February come once again...

Happy Birthday to those who were born this month..

Hatred and anger never dwell in me for I believe each and every human being will make mistakes and deserve forgiveness if they apologize..
I made mistakes.. millions of time.. And as much as I pray that He will forgive me, so do I hope that people can also spare me forgiveness..

Life will be so much easier and prettier if we can apologize and forgive each other..
We are human.. We are learning, and the process will never stop as long as we are breathing..

For that I apologize to everyone whom I hurt in this process of learning and experiencing..
I am sorry and I hope 'World Peace' is not just a saying..

p/s: Selamat Hari Lahir.. May Allah bless you always.. Be happy!~

Cendana Di Hatiku

2010-01-29T15:51:00.018+08:00

It's been quite a while since I last updated this page of mine.
A lot of things happened but unfortunately I have no spare time to write everything here..

Just a reminder, I went to the most weird yet fantastic trip with me beloved friends.
May, Syakiff and Nahar.. if you are reading this, thanks so much for asking me to join you guys and for giving me something to reminisce in the future...

Thousand of words can't describe the trip and all the experience. For that, I present here few photos that we took

Penang was awesome!!!
....................

Taiping was Superb!
.................

Bukit Larut will stay in my Heart Forever!~
...............................

The Friends to keep~

p/s: Cendana, I miss you.. and I'll be back.. you'll see~
pss: Can't wait for the Road Trip! Map!!!! we need you.. hehehe

Oath

2010-01-07T20:11:00.006+08:00

My name is Mardiana binti Mahdzir!
I love my life.. I love my family.. I love my friends.. I love my job.. I love Malaysia! I love this world..
I'm lucky to be the one who swum faster than the other partners..
I'm grateful to be giving the chance to breathe and to see this world..

I'm happy because I have experienced a lot at the age of 25..
I will never forget the bad things that happened for it make me grow stronger and wiser..
I will always remember each and every sweet memories that I had with everyone I encounter...

I will continue this journey with a wide smile pasted on my face..
I will see more and learn more now...
I am strong! I am Diana!

p/s: this is my solemn promise... to myself!

Eve!

2010-01-06T16:20:00.002+08:00

I know it's late but... Happy New Year!
Bye bye 2009 and with warmest regards, welcome 2010!
This year is the year of happiness! I can already smell it!

Past is past.. i've experienced the worst! i've learn a lot!
I apologize once again for all my wrongdoings and all my wrong words for I never had any intention to hurt anyone in my life..
I'm deeply sorry for all the trouble happened although I were the one who'd fall in the darkest state..

Thanks so much to those who I call friends.. Without all of you I maybe will never get up!
Thanks for believing in me and for give me hands to grab.. I will remember it till my last breath..

Smiling widely now! Life is great!!!

p/s: I see you and I think you are perfect!

Grudge

2009-12-23T21:57:00.006+08:00

I know I can do nothing bout it now..
I know I have to somehow accept it.. even if my heart & my mind resent it..
someday.. one day.. just not now..

p/s: thanks to great friends who supported me.. especially you who always be by my side although we argue a lot.. I'm glad I have you guys... xoxo

Keluarga Kalut!

2009-12-17T22:37:00.003+08:00

pesanan penaja: aku akan banyak menggunakan loghat utara kali ni. Mintak maap kalau tak paham.. ;)

Weekend lepas kami sekeluarga (family belah mama) ada Family Day kat Pangkor buat julung kalinya..
Pagi² buta family aku dah kalut macam ribut bersiap..
Mama macam biasa-ketua! buat satu rumah jadi huru-hara!

Kami berimpit macam sardin dalam tin, naik Waja 7 orang sampai Tesco gara-gara gajiku tak cukup nak buh minyak viva. hua hua hua!
Jumpa Kak Yarn & Abg Sham so Zira dgn Hazim dapat tumpang depa. (cerdik masuk)
Selesai minum nescafe segelas, aku offer diri nak drive.. bukan apa, kesian kat abah..
Dari aku kecik sampai aku dah tua bangka camni, asyik abah jadi driver..
Sekali-sekala abah jadilah boss duduk belakang pulak..

Punyalah laju aku bawak.. tapi pasai ramai gila manusia kat jetty Lumut tu, kami sampai lambat gila! Sampai ja terus pelahap apa ada pasai semua dah kebuluq gila.. Licin makanan kat challet tu kami bedal, dahla sedap gila.. Oh ya, family aku ngan Kak Yarn paling lambat. Makcik sebelum Subuh dah bertolak. Yang lain² dari Penang, so depa papagi buta dah sampai sana..

Hari pertama tu (Jumaat) kami takdak aktiviti sangat. Cuma relax² ambik angin Pulau.
Malamnya, kami yang perempuan pakat bungkus hamper ramai² (persiapan utk sukaneka hari Sabtu). Macam biasa, makcik jadi kepala pasai dia paling creative. Family aku ni sejak azali kalau bersembang memang semua suara macam pakai mic. Masing-masing nak bercakap, takmau kalah. Yang syoknya, bole dengaq semua sekaligus! Nasib baik challet kami duduk tu sangatlah private. Tu pon suara masing² boleh dengaq sampai challet sebelah.. hahaha! adoilah! nak buat mcm mana, keturunan!

*alamak-ada kerja pulak. aku sambung nanti.. huhu

worthwhileness

2009-12-16T11:17:00.002+08:00

p/s: when the dog bites, when the bee stings, i simply remember i have you and suddenly life don't seems so completely shit~

kopi hijo

2009-12-10T13:22:00.005+08:00

p/s: hayati|~

Love

2009-12-09T14:06:00.005+08:00

Love is a BIG word..
honestly i don't understand.. What is Love?

as i remembered love is painful!
too painful till my heart can't bear no more..
coz i don't know how to not love someone wholeheartedly..
i don't know why i act differently when i love..
i dont' know why my actions are always be misinterpreted..

maybe.. just maybe right now at this moment, i'm scared..
i'm so afraid.. what if my heart being broken again..
i don't wanna feel the pain again..
i'm not Mulan.. i'm not strong...

p/s: i don't know how to empty my cup.. i seriously don't know how..

those magical things

2009-12-08T09:52:00.007+08:00

there are magical things laying in this world we live..
it's up to all of us to believe it or not..
but i seriously believe in magic..
coz i know deep down that these things exist..

without magic life would be boring..
nothing is special..
no memories should remains..
everything will be just the same..

i live in magical world..
and you need to know and believe in those magical words in order to enter..
for that's the only key to unlock the door...

p/s: it's just one simple word, but it's magic!~

hominidae

2009-12-07T11:44:00.005+08:00

They come they go and sometimes they come back..
But I'm waiting for The One who are willing to stay no matter what..

a drop of tears for a fake smile

2009-12-01T16:12:00.008+08:00

life is a circle..
its started when I was a baby..
I cried wholeheartedly coz I don't know how to begin..
Then I crawled and get on top of the wheel..

Slowly I started walking.. but I don't know how so I fall..
I got up and climb the wheel back..
This time I already know the way..
But then I started to get excited so I started to run..
I fall flat!

It took me a while to get up and climb back the wheel..
I ran and I fall.. Few times!
So I learn.. it's better to just keep walking..

But I am just an ordinary human being..
I tend to get delirious and made the mistake again..
I ran again.. But this time it's so much fun!
So I thought I already know how..
Little did I know, I can get tired..

So now I'm exhausted.. Can't catch my breath..
I wanted to start walking back, but it's too late..
I fall! Big time!
It hurts! Demm hurt!
I need a moment.. or maybe an inspiration..
Just to climb back the wheel..

p/s: I need just a drop of tears for me to paint a fake smile~

Problems

2009-11-30T18:45:00.006+08:00

As long as we are sane people, we will definitely have problems.
I have problems. Everybody has..
How do we differentiate the big problems and the small one?
How do we know A's problems are bigger than D's?

In my view, I think we won't..
Yes, we can never say A's problems are bigger than B's.
Because to me problems are very subjective..
Maybe that problems looks so small in our eyes, but not to the person who bears it..
As long as it is not ours, we can never judge how small or how big that problem is..

But the most important thing is actually not the problem itself, but how we handle it..
That's how I differentiate the size of my problems..
The harder for me to handle it, means the bigger the problem is..
But then, if I encounter the same problems many times, it will definitely getting smaller and smaller..

So I hope as I get older, I will become wiser..
I hope that I will handle my problems more easily although I was hoping that I will not encounter the same problems again and again.. :D

p/s: yerps.. post ini bukan untuk menceritakan masalah-masalah saye.. hehe

The Most Important Thing is to be Happy

2009-11-29T12:12:00.022+08:00

This gonna be a very looooong post...

I've been hanging out with this guys since Maikel's open house..
'Go with the Flow', 'Out of the Circle'. That's what I did..
They are all interesting people, great friends, fun and also very funny..
Lmao every time we lepak!

Geng Idaman! That's the name that randomly being picked up when someone asked us where were we from.. I first met 4 of them at Idaman.. And started getting closer with others also at Idaman. Stories, secrets are also shared at Idaman.
fyi: Idaman is a restaurant in Damansara.

Since then I met them almost everyday. Most of them are so much older than me.. Abang-abang & kakak-kakak. :D
Sometimes I don't really understand their words, but they always gave me great advise..
I'll keep all the advise in mind, and I'll definitely learn and keep on learning..

........................

On the 6th November we went for a trip to Langkawi. It was called 'Last Minit Destinasi'. Indeed it was a last minute thing. Just for the weekend! Giler!
So much fun! So many photos. Too much laughter, and too much nonsense! :P
Not to mention.. some emotional moments and some secrets that make us bound.. hehe
Here are some of the memories that we captured..

kita kembali dalam rancangan... er.. oo last minit destinasi

apa pemandangan datuk syakiff?! -pertama sekali...

all 7 of us

It's just the 7 of us.. Not everyone could make it. Hopefully next time everyone will be in the frame.. More characters and definitely more laughter!

I'll definitely have to skip some activities in between. I'll be run out of pages if I were to put everything here.. Roughly, we had crazy karaoke sessions and lots & lots of movies! Just let it be our memories..My memories that I will kept in my mind hopefully forever..

........................

On the 20th November, we did it again. All of a sudden we were in Genting. Hahaha!
This time it's only 5 of us. I will never forget the argument with Syakiff in the car where Dann just kept quiet in between, irritated. It was damn stupid and I don't even remember how it all started.

And the best part was when Syakiff cried at First World lobby..
"May! May! May! Aku tau ko ade sini.. Ko nyorok kan?? May!!!"
Wahahahahahaha! Sorry Syakiff I had to mention it here. Gile kelakar tahap dewa siyot!!!
And I can still imagine Nahar's confused face.. hahaha!
Aku ngan Dann dah gelak guling-guling dah kat situ! adoilah!
Pastu ade lagi..
"Bende keeeccciiiikk pon jadi issue!!!" wakakakakakaka!

As usual, pictures tell a thousand words, although in this case, maybe just few hundreds. Coz there were so much that camera not able to capture. hehe

jalan ke hulu-hilir last2 Old Town gak! :P

sengal's session

all 5 of us

p/s: I would like to thanks Syakiff for both trip! thanks so much babe!!!

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And last night, we went to Melaka!
There are Melaka Art & Performance Festival at St Paul's Hill (Kota A-Famosa). It was organized by e-plus which is Boy, Zaini & Naem's company. So as much as we went to support them, we definitely enjoyed the show and performance.

To me, the best show was the 15/15 Film Festival 2009. The filmmakers were given 15 hours to produce a 15 minutes short film. An object were given, and they have to come up with the storyline based on that particular object. Last night we believed that they were given balloons that come with a tagline "The Most Important Thing is to be Happy"
The final outcome was a surprise to me. The idea was superb and it was definitely a success.
My favorite is a short film called 'Blow Away' from Thailand. I do hope that I can watch it again..

Owh, there were also this thing called 'Secret Wishes & Fear'. I participated by hanging out my secret and fear that is written on a coconut leaf together with everyone else. hehe

Too bad somebody borrowed Syakiff's camera. I told him it was a small issue but then I realized.. We have NO PICTURES!!! Demm it! So everything that our eyes could captured will be saved in our head's memory..

p/s: Will someone hand me a balloon ?!~

Repose

2009-11-27T21:20:00.006+08:00

That's all I need right now..
I just want a day off. A day without mind. A day that I can think about nothing.
A day that I can fully repose. Can I? Should I?
I so need a holiday. A real vacation. Where I can smile sincerely, laugh wholeheartedly. Talk nonsensically.

I want to cry but I have no tears.
I want to scream but I have no voice.
The worst part is I don't even know why.
I don't even know what's my problems.
I am lost. So lost...

I'm sorry...

2009-11-26T13:35:00.006+08:00

I would like to apologize..
For all the things I've said and done..
For when I were moody and being sarcastic..
For my annoyingly talkative habit..
For asking so much ridiculous questions..
For all the complaints and nagging..
For all the stupid mumblings..
For being so stubborn..
For not being on time..
For giving false hope..
For all the lies..
And for every wrongdoings whether realizing it or not..
I am so so so sorry..

~Selamat Menyambut Hari Raya Qurban~

p/s: Ya Allah.. I am just your humble worshiper. Please forgive me...

Shit Happens!

2009-11-25T10:30:00.003+08:00

I really really really hate that phrase! But then I have to admit that it is true. Shit happens!
Whether we like it or not. Obviously we don't like it.
Last night our beloved Nissan Sunny (KV9916) has been stolen at Subang airport a.k.a Skypark.
That car has given us so much memories since we were in Langkawi until now.
Can't believe someone could stole that old car!

What makes it worst is all the most precious and valuable things that I put in that car.
My degree certificate and all other certs in my files.
And the first thing that crossed my mind last night was Kebau and Imy's albums!!!
Damn, I almost fainted last night!
Kebau asked me to take care of the albums like my own life, and now I hope he will kill me!
I never expected this to happened..

Thousands of apologized won't bring the photos back! I know that fact!
I know how much they love that photos.. The memories.. I know!
It hurts me damn badly and I can't even imagine their feelings..
I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry..............

And my dad loves that car so much!!!
I love that car so much!

p/s: i have hope.. I believe we can find it back! Amiiin...

Kawan

2009-11-24T16:23:00.004+08:00

Aku ada kawan. Semua orang ada kawan..
Ada sorang kawan aku cakap.. Err, aku anggap dia kawan aku tapi dia kata kita perlu mengambil masa 4 tahun untuk menjadikan seseorang tu kawan kita, sebelum tu, kenalan..

Ya.. istilah yang berbeza, maksud mungkin sama.. Pada aku, kenalan adalah orang yang kita hanya tahu nama dan bertegur bila terjumpa saja.. Berurusan bila perlu sahaja. Kawan pulak adalah orang yang kita ada no phone, keluar melepak bersama, dan kekal berhubung.
Dan di antara kawan-kawan ada sahabat. Yang pernah susah dan senang bersama. Berkongsi masalah dan rahsia bersama. Bergembira bersama. Menangis bersama. Bagi aku masa bukan menjadi ukuran. Ada orang yang memerlukan bertahun-tahun untuk menjadi sahabat kita.. Ada pulak yang hanya beberapa hari saja.. Semuanya bergantung pada keadaan..

Dalam ramai-ramai kenalan, kawan dan sahabat aku, ada seorang insan yang aku anggap sahabat baik aku.. Dia memang terlalu mengenali aku luaran dan dalaman.. Walaupon kami jarang sangat berjumpa, tapi dia sentiasa tahu isi hati aku, tak perlu aku bercerita panjang..
Aku harap persahabatan kami akan kekal selama-lamanya..

Apa-apa pon aku hargai setiap insan yang aku kenal di dunia ni.. Bagi aku kenalan, kawan dan sahabat adalah rezeki..

p/s: takda manusia yang boleh hidup sendirian~

Hollyday

2009-11-23T15:48:00.004+08:00

I just love the idea of holiday and vacation..
I want to travel around the world..
I want to do all the stupid things on that trip..
I want to try all the weird activities..

someone told me that I need to get out of the box..
I never even see the box..
But I believe him.. Because his thinking is so different and interesting..
Maybe he is out of his box already..
So, why should I object when I know just some little things and I can see that he knows so many..

I need to learn a lot..
There are so much that I don't know..
So many that I have to know..
Saya memang budak baru belajar!

So................
please please please dear God..
Let me have some time and money to travel..
Coz I believe your world is still big for me for I want to go and explore it..
Thank you!

first sekali nak gi sini!

p/s: i'm praying hard!

Quill Pen & Ink

2009-11-22T16:55:00.002+08:00

Why do i named my blog 'Quill Pen & Ink'?
I created this blog merely to express my feelings if not to others just for myself..
I am a person with thousands of feelings.. Thousands of characters..
I can write with thousands different kind of handwriting..

A wise person said that we can defined one character by their handwriting..
But I have so many different hand writings. I can copy other's too and sometimes use it until I found other style..
So how can u say u know my hand writing so well while I don't even know which one is really mine?

Lately my life is jumbling.. Although I'm tired and sometimes got hurt, still I really enjoy this moment of life.. I'm learning and I'll keep on collecting everything along the way.. If it's bad for me, I'll throw it away.. maybe other people will take it if it suits them..
Coz I believe sometimes what is good for me, can be bad for others and vise versa. We are human.. We are different..

I hope life can be simpler but it won't be interesting anymore right?
We love people to smile at us but how can we know that smile is so good if we never see tears?
How would we enjoy laughter if we never been crying?
Why should we appreciate praise if we never been scolded?

Yes, life is colorful.. Writing about life feels so wonderful.. I will keep on writing with my quill.. About me.. about my life..

p/s: Life is wonderful because death exist~

dua kosong kosong

2009-11-04T02:30:00.009+08:00

Yer, aku dah janji ngan korang takkan tulis pasal ni..
Tapi... takkan korang percaya ngan janji-janji manis aku tu kot!?
Hahahahaha! Memang sah-sah i'll cross my fingers! :P
Dahla korang taknak selamatkan aku, ada hati suruh aku berjanji.. bluek!

Spontaneous. Unplanned. I loike!
Lepas 5 tahun akhirnya hajat aku tercapai gak! Thanks to my partners in crime (sedih sbb tak cukup lengkap).
Tapi memang enjoy. Hopefully next time semua dapat join.. Biar meriah!

As people said, pictures tell a thousand words. So daripada aku tulis seribu perkataan yang berkemungkinan akan membuatkan reputasi sesetengah pihak terjatuh (hahaha! tiru ayat syaza).. Baik aku letak gambor-gambor je kat sini kan..
Walaupon tak banyak. Kate tak dirancang, mmg hasilnya camera handphone je ler.. Tu pon nasib baik ade..

kabus ribut

next trip gua paksa semua naik tu!

finela.. I jump! sob sob

sori, kaco daun ye kecik. hahaha!

mmg up shiyal!

p/s: okay next...!!!

no answer

2009-10-28T18:41:00.004+08:00

I met him unplanned. We get along well. We become closer and ended up becoming good friends.
We can talk about everything. Funny things, serious things, emotional things, even some weird things. No pretending. Nothing to hide. Nothing to be scared of. I can truly be myself with him.
No one can ever comfort me as good as him. Because he has a very different way.
He didn't use all the sweet and comforting words, but I realized that his way is the best way to make me feel safe. And I believe he doesn't even realized it coz he never pretend.
Sometimes when I feel unsafe and insecure, all I have to do is just imagine what will he say to me if I talk to him, and just by doing that I can already smile.
Unintentionally I fall for him. Maybe this is wrong, or maybe it has been written. I have no answer for that. Maybe this is just temporary and maybe it will last forever.
All I can do is just enjoying this moment for as long as I can. Coz if he is just a dream, I wish I will never wake up...
But in the end, I am not Princess Jasmine but I do hope that he is my Aladdin.

p/s: cerminku retak seribu~

pss: ni post ke 100.. hurm~

Those Were The Days

2009-10-26T20:39:00.003+08:00

My photo editing skill is not as good as kecik nowadays.
Yeah, Kecik gua salute lu babe. Gua kenal lu drp tak reti langsung photoshop, skang gambar-gambar lu memang powww!

Anyway, this is the result of missing my good old days. I miss my partners in crime so much and i wish i can turn back time and freeze it a little bit longer.
Not that i am not happy today, but those days were really great and they are all truly are my friends who i will remember and love till my last breath. I will never forget all the jokes and sweet moments with you guys.. (walaupon biasanya asyik kene bahan je) :P

Words can't describe how much I love all of you. All I can say is I thank God so much for giving me such wonderful and colorful friends! I know deeply that all of you will stay in my heart and my mind forever and I believe we will stay friends till eternity..

p/s: gua sayang dan rindu bangat sama lu orang wey!

Unbelievable

2009-10-19T15:14:00.006+08:00

I experienced something really weird this weekend.
It was so unbelievable till i thought it was merely a dream.
Honestly it was a great experience although i'm not proud with it and not thinking of repeating it.
But in life we have to learn by experiencing things right!?

A good friend of mine told me that I have so much things to learn.
Just go with it, and learn from it.
I guess he was demm right!

It was nice to remember but I have to forget it.
Can't believe that I take it so easily right now.
Can't even believe I was in that situation and at this moment I just want to let it be.

p/s: I know i can't forget it. The least I can do is not sharing it with others, so I will have no one to remind me about it..

Work

2009-10-13T19:06:00.002+08:00

Sekarang aku dah kerja.. today is my 5th day at this beautiful office..
Yes, opisku sungguh chantek! Aku dah jatuh hati masa first time aku datang dulu..
So skang aku dah start bekerja di sini..
Perasaan : sangat happy

Tapi biasalah production house keje memang banyak takyah cite ar kan..
Tapi takpe, disebabkan opis ni cun gile dan orang-orang di dalamnya juga best, jadi aku takdehal.. okay je laaa...

Owh lupe, aku keje kat Bsync Productions (yea, btol! Bising! Sesuai sekali dgn watakku. haha!). So kalau ade sesape nak buat event ke nak buat recording ke dan sewaktu dengannya, jangan segan silu, bole msg aku.. hehehe (gile promote).

And right now, jam menunjukkan pukul 7.15ptg. Aku masih di mejaku di tingkat 3 opisku ini.
Pemandangan di luar sungguh indah.. Bole nampak The Gardens dari tingkap sebelah aku ni. Huhu.. Skang aku tgh berehat sebentar bersama-sama kit kat. Sikit lagi nak sambung buat design backdrop..

Keadaan semakin gelap di luar. Dan yang pasti, aku memang setiap hari pulang di kala matahari sudah beradu.. huhu.. Takpe, demi masa depan, aku akan bekerja keras (nak pi Krabi next year! kene kumpul duit! hahaha!?)..

Baiklah.. setakat ini dahulu celotehku (wahahaha! gilelar ayat!!!). Aku mahu menyambung mengadap designku yang masih tak ke mana-mana.. Sehingga bertemu lagi dalam rancangan... De ku kesah!? (hehe. sorry saye tau nama rancangan tu saye tiru. Tapi.. de ku kesah!? wahahaha!!!) Tata titi tutu.. :P

p/s: akhirnya aku bekerjaya! wuuhuuu!

Partners in Crime

2009-10-05T17:09:00.018+08:00

Yeah, yesterday we finally met!
i haven't seen Bona since forever. Missed her and the others so much.
Yesterday morning, Bona suddenly sms me telling that she has Mas's interview at KJ. So at 11ish i went to pick her up. We picked up Diyana at Taman Tun and went to Curve to have lunch. Arm and Kecik joined us later on.

After lunch we were thinking on watching movie, tapi takde citer menarik la plak.. Then arm gave a shocking idea. Idea tu takdela shocking sangat, tapi sbb Arm yg kasi dia jadi gile mengejutkan ar.. Hahahaha! For RM30 we made a fool of ourself for 2 hours in 'karaoke jamban' at e @ curve. It was damn fun son!

*gambar

After that we went to teh tarik place. Borak, bahan.. citer mengarut-ngarut like last time. Damn, i really missed those 'terminal days'. But it doesn't feel perfectly right coz Qaha was not with us. We called him, and he was busy shopping dia nye barang-barang tunang! (Hah! Qaha nak bertunang dah! gile tak caya wey!!! papahal congrats bro. Kecik sure nangis guling-guling pasni. hahaha!)

Then Qaha invited us to go to his house. Yeay!
Kiterang naik satu kete je. Kete Arm siyot! Weehuu! Dalam kete mengarut lagi.
Qaha's house was super gorgeous! Last time i went there, tak siap renovate lagi. Ni dah siap, gile cun! Pastu rasa mcm kiterang sume dah dewasa gile borak kat hall.. hahaha! Mak dia plak sangat sporting as usual.. Aswaq and Alan were there too..

And takkan lengkapla perjalanan hari kami kalau takde sesi photography kan.. Cuma this time takdela beria sangat sbb respect ar mak Qaha ada. Tak senonoh sangat kalau nak lompat2 kan..

*gambar

Masa dalam kete sosorang lepas kiterang semua membawa haluan masing-masing, aku dapat satu sms yg berbunyik:

'Best la lepak hari nie. Tak tau apsal. Haha.'

Aku agak tergamam membaca msg itu coz it came from KECIK!! Muahahahaha! adoiyai, tetibe jadi jiwang mamat ni kan! Tapi aku bersetuju ar. Mmg best gile! Coz it's been too long, and i guess everyone pon rindu zaman cyber kan!!! (dah jangan nak buat tak ngaku, simpan ego tu semua! :P)

p/s: kite kene lepak selalu wey! pusing lighter seround!?
pss: mana la gambar ni diyana oiii.. jinggut den nunggu hah!

Labu

2009-10-02T18:10:00.009+08:00

I wish i can show u how we describe this particular vehicle (by using my hands) when we talked about it last time :)
Yeah, we've been talking about this vehicle for years. Actually bukan takat bercerita pasal kenderaan ni je, malah we were planning to find it and rent it for a road trip.
Malangnya plan tu terkubur di situ saja bila kami semua dah grad. I wish, yes i really really wish that one day we can go for a road trip like we planned, my dearest friends.
(oh syahdunye. tetibe rindu gile teramat kat korang* semua).

Okay, anyway..
I got to ride that vehicle!!! hahahahaha! jangan jeles eh korang!
Dan inilah buktinya..

Kombi! kami panggil Labu dulu (diyana punye miniature)

erk, tertiru pose syiera :P

duk dalam, okay. dan dia jalan! hehe

Akhirnya dapat gak aku naik Labu. hip hip hooreay!
That was Fun!
Lepak with them also fun! They are funny and very entertaining!
We were lepaking at Lepaq. The card game was hilarious! really laugh my ass off. haha!
Thanks for making me laugh with all the actions and jokes (walaupon ade setengah tu tak paham, tp belasah je gelak gak! haha)
Hope we can hang out again sometimes. :D

korang* diyana, bona, arm, qaha, kecik, gump, kak nad, syiera, nea & dause.
Sumpah rindu giler kat korang wey! jomla lepaking!

p/s: Hopefully dapat naik kete ni lagi and jalan jauh sikit. hehehe

Random Open house

2009-09-29T02:17:00.008+08:00

I reached home from kg at 6am on Saturday morning. since i was away from cyber world for a week so i didn't sleep right away but i chose to torture my eyes and my body by online. hehehe. Suddenly at 11.30am Naem msg me (ym) and invited me to go to Maikel's open house. And I don't know why, i accepted it (gile concept spontaneous berani mati punyer!). I warned Naem to never leave me alone so many times since I was shy (terkejut tak!?), and coz i don't know anyone there accept for him and Maikel. (in fact aku baru je plak tu kenal derang berdua ni. Pernah jumpe sekali je, and masa tu takde borak sgt pon sbb tgh discuss keje ngan aziz)

And after berkelam-kelibut unpack all my things from the car (which super duper banyak coz mama bagi kat kami barang-barang dia sekali T_T), I immediately went to PJ to pick up Naem. Dugaan agak besar utk tiba ke rumah terbuka itu. Some of the friends came late, some got lost on the way, some have to find toilet.. (-_-")
but it was fun! I really enjoy the moment looking at Naem's hungry face. hahaha!

When we were there, suddenly I became the rare me!
I didn't speak!!! can u believe that?! huhuhuhu. seriously people, i talk a lot but only with friends, not with people that I don't know yet. So some people may think that I am a quiet person. Tapi pabila mereka menjadi kawanku mereka akan menyesal berfikir begitu T_T

inilah hasilnya! kelakuan bersopan santun. (-_-")

salam perkenalan semuanya! :)

And after that I was supposed to go home already when suddenly Maikel ran away from his house to follow Naem to other friend's open house (perangai siyot) and invited me to go along. I was already a little bit blurry as the result of staying up after driving from Penang, so I can't think straight and honestly I think they were fun to hang out with, so I said yes! :D

So this is the second house we went:

saye follow mereka inilah! eh, mana my hubby?

with tuan rumah (Nana)

The food was awesome in both houses, and they were also very friendly. So as much as I felt shy, i still have fun and enjoy the day so much!
erk, mcm dah nak penutup story plak..

Actually, after Nana's house, we went to another house (which i also don't know the owner :P). So concept hari itu ialah spontaneous dan follow sajelah! hehehe.
It was already at night and seriously despite my all-the-time-smiling face that i potrait, my body has already shaking and my head was spinning sometimes.
I was covering it from them but I think Maikel noticed it, so he asked me to go home to get some sleep. (ke sebenarnye dia halau aku weh? huhu)

Hurm... papahal that day was awesome! Random and spontaneous (dah 3 kali kuar perkataan ni). Really hope that we can hang out again sometimes. Thanks to them all especially to Maikel and Naem for not leaving me alone and entertained me all the way. Thank you so much! I had fun!

p/s: ni crita hari sabtu, hari ahad aku kasi sambung later. ngantuk dah. babai

Sunday

I woke up early to go to my uncle's open house at Sepang. They just got back from Japan. (celebrate raya kat jepun. jeles.)
As expected, it was fun! I love them all. Okay, nothing more to say.

nanti dah dpt gambar aku letak*

After that we went to my friend's house. He was my classmate back in 1995 (sekolah rendah tu). He was also my neighbor. So his parents is my parents' friend. Basically they work together at Langkawi's airport. I haven't seen him for about a year, and he's already married (yg bestnye, dia kawen ngan adik ex aku. waaah kecilnya dunia! T_T) His mom is sick. It's sad to see the person i knew in that condition. I'll pray for her to get better. Amiiin.

At night we went to my other friend's house pulak. perhubungan kami sama la lebey kurang mcm ngan kawan aku yg tadi tu. We were all staying at airport quarters Langkawi last time. So, quarters confirm ar parents kawan-kawan dan anak-anak pon berkawan juga kan. hehe.

this is the best thing about raya. kite dapat berjumpa kembali rakan-rakan lama.
i know that we can meet each other even bukan time raya pon kan. but then, thats our culture. raya je gi jalan umah org! ok ape kan. drp tak jumpe langsung. hehe

p/s: hari raya hari yang mulia~

4 tahun sekali

2009-09-26T10:27:00.007+08:00

depa kata tema baju raya aku thn ni ikut color sawah padi
(-_-")

yerps, only once in 4 years my parents dapat cuti raya. so this year memang beraya sakan tak ingat dunia punya! cuti sampai seminggu. er, more actually. kami balik kg last friday and just reached home this morning.

owh, let me tell you bout that friday. (friday yg lagi 2 hari nak raya tu la)
kampung kami kat sungai bakau, nibong tebal. sempadan penang dan perak.
(utk pengetahun rakan-rakan yg mengenali diri ini, itu sajalah kg yg aku ada skang. so kalau aku cakap aku nak balik kg, maknanya kat situ lah! bukan kedah dan mmg definitely bukan langkawi okay. owh one more thing, kg aku kat seberang perai selatan, bukan dalam island. mengambil masa hampir sejam nak masuk island. so tak payahla pesan dvd mahupon buah pala, sbb seingat aku, mmg rare sungguh nak sampai ke dalam pulau tu kalau aku blk kg. (-_-)

okay berbalik pada friday. this year kami balik kg 2 kereta. dah takleh buat perangai naik waja 7 org. tak muat dah. so aku ngan zira balik sendiri naik kereta comel yg kami duk berebut tu. dan lan tumpang kami sbb dia lupa nak beli tiket bas. T_T
so, normally it took us around 4 hours utk sampai ke kg. tapi pada hari jumaat yg bahagia itu, kami mengambil masa almost 12 hours utk tiba di umah tokwan. (tapi itu termasuk shopping barang persiapan raya kat bandar baru parit buntar selama lebih kurang 2 jam. hehe) jalan jam giler, ala-ala macam new year kat area klcc. bila aku pikir-pikir rasa hairan macam mana manusia yg ramai-ramai balik kg ni bole muat duduk kat KL yg hanya satu dot dalam map malaysia tu. amazing kan!?

so raya tahun ni memang meriah. coz it's been too long since i saw my cousins. semuanya dah besar panjang. kalau jumpa kat tepi jalan mmg aku tak tegur sbb tak kenal langsung muka sorang-sorang. ada yg dah kahwin, in fact ada yg anak dah besar pon. (aduh, aku jugak yg menyingle) T_T

and too bad my camera still kat kedai. aku nak gi mengamuk kat kedai ni, dah 'setahun' (literally okay, bukan exaggerate) service camera tu tak siap-siap lagi. gila ke!?
so here are few chosen pictures taken using my sister's phone. :D

overtime di malam raya

tokwan & tok di pagi syawal

rumah dikelilingi pokok beras

p/s: sampai je umah pagi ni ada hadiah istimewa di depan umah. pokok pelam mama tumbang kat porch (-_-")

Salam Lebaran

2009-09-17T15:35:00.004+08:00

Of all my sins, hearts I hurt, or things I said.
Your forgiveness I ask on this day.
And humbly Yours forever I stay.
Selamat Hari Raya to all.
Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

p/s: esok dah nak balik kg. takut tak sempat nak wish, so i post this today. :)